Update on Patti

Patti went to the hospital and was told that she has pancreatitis. The doctor prescribed Nexium (the little purple pill) and a painkiller for the pain. She was also told to quit smoking, change her diet and quit drinking pop.

Thanks to all my friends for their well wishes and support. I appreciate it more than I can articulate.

"Oh well, It can’t get any worse"

A few weeks ago, there was an “incident” with my Skype account that resulted in me being out $130, dropping Paypal and for the first time in my life, doubting doing anything involving money online. Skype reversed the charges and now I have over $100 in Skype Credit which is not very useful to me at all, but I remember thinking “Oh well, it can’t get any worse.’

Driving home a few days later, I get a blow out on the freeway and because nothing was open I had to leave my car at my ex-wife’s house until I could get it fixed in the morning. It was fixed with no problem and I remember thinking once again “Oh well, it can’t get any worse.”

A few days later, I was downsized. No big deal, after all a job is just a job and whether I keep it from one day to the next is usually at the behest of the people in charge. This day they decided that I wouldn’t have to come in the next day. I’m pretty sure that I will work again one day so I am not all that worried about things. Besides, I wouldn’t want to be a party if nobody wanted me there. Again “Oh well, it can’t get any worse.”

Late last week, I was really dizzy everytime I stood up. I have a blood pressure measuring thing (I think that is the official name for it) and it was 183 over 119. Time to worry a little, but to be honest with you, if I die then I die. I’m not going to go searching for death but if it catches up with me, then there’s really not a lot I can do about it. “Oh well, it can’t get any worse.”

Well it can. Patti was vomiting most of the night. She went to the doctor while I was home with the kids. She just called and told me that she was on the way to the hospital because she is now throwing up blood. The absolute worst thing that could happen in my life is if something were to happen to her.

God, Fate, Bob, whatever cosmic forces there are that are piling crap onto me, can you please just ease up a little? OK. Thanks

Two Things 7/27

I am heading out for the day but I have two things I wanted to share.

1) My cassette adapter is still broken, so I have a bunch of old tapes with me: Expose-What You Don’t Know, Whodini-Escape and The Best of Charlie Parker Vol 2.

2) I saw Dark Passage today for the first time in years, I would have ended it differently. The scene after Bogart gets on the bus would have cut to Peru at some undetermined time in the future. Bacall would have been sitting there ordering a drink “I’m expecting someone, please let me know when he arrives.” The waiter would have agreed and a nearby employee would have said “Should I set another place at that table?” Waiter shakes his head slowly “No. She says that everyday.” Fade to credits. We never know if Bogey makes it or not.

Something a little depressing

I just realized that my termination day with the company I used to work for is August 15, 2008. That is also the 3 year anniversary of Deliberate Noise. At first I could feel the cold tendrils of depression trying to take hold of my mind, but I realized that when I posted the first episode of Deliberate Noise, my life changed for the better. I have met a lot of new people, a bunch that I consider friends. I have done a bunch of things that I never would have even dreamed of doing even a few months earlier, including but not limited to talking into a microphone for hours a week and putting my image on a T-shirt.

Once that started to sink into my head, I realized that there is no reason why August 15 couldn’t be another new beginning for me.

August 15 – Deliberate Noise’s birthday
August 16 – My father’s birthday (RIP Dad)
August 17 – Stephen’s birthday

A day of new beginning, a day of quiet reflection (not mourning) and a day of celebration. All in a row.

I started this post a little apprehensive, but now I’m starting to get a little excited.

Why my unemployment is good for the nation.

Ever since I was downsized, it appears as though gas prices have dropped nation wide. I got a tankful of gas at lunchtime at $4.19, got downsized and as I drove by the same gas station, the price was $4.15. Not nice.

The last time my car was out of commission, I hitched a ride with a guy who passed by my house. The prices fell that morning. I rode with him for a week and the prices stayed low. The day that my car was fixed, prices went up almost ten cents.

As long as my car isn’t going anywhere, prices fall. As soon as I have to go somewhere, prices go up.

However, I don’t like being unemployed, so enjoy the price break while you can.

The blog is renamed

I didn’t put a lot of thought into the naming of this blog simply because I didn’t plan on using it very much. Lately I have been using it a lot more than I had thought I would, so I decided to worry about naming it.

Since like my various podcasts, this is just me making up stuff off the top of my head, I decided to call it ‘Derek Coward’s Noise’.

Why? Why not?

No more Paypal

Due to the events of last week, I have gotten rid of my Paypal account. If you still want to buy a T-shirt or make a donation to the show, email me at [email protected] and we’ll work something out. This also means no more eBay auctions for me. Thank goodness for Atomic Avenue.

Sorry for any inconvenience this may cause.

Extra notes for Deliberate Noise 104

I don’t know about you but this looks the way I would picture terrorist cell activity to look:

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